whose work?

Our responsibility is simply to make our witness faithful; it is God’s responsibility alone to make it effective. (John MacArthur)



finally, after a long frosty season, the sun has shined and warmed the land.

i was found weeping because uncertainty wrapped it’s icy fingers around my heart
but today i weep again because it was there that Your blazing love thawed the ice.

thank You, and thank you.


remember: i live in an abundance of love!

lack; it keeps me on a search for a mirage of affection, pleasant only in thought

it is not affection that satisfies but a blood-stained cross that fulfills

I still find myself trying to reach for an elusive standard of “self” that is at the very least, satisfactory. But that is not what You want of me, and I’m still trying to accept that. “Unconditional” is a hard concept to understand.



in motion

9am Philo class should be renamed to Ecclesiastes… meaningless…….

Sat for an hour and 40mins in class listening to a class discussion on the various possibilities of what knowledge encapsulates. Everyone seemed to feel increasingly uncertain about what they initially believed to be “knowledge” and “truth”. It calls to memory smth I heard:

“For instance, I loved my Wife and children, but I was determined to regard this love as merely a subjective preference without a real and objective value! Think what this did my ability to love them! After all, love is a commitment of the will to the true good of another person; and how can one’s will be committed to the true good of another person if he denies the reality of good, denies the reality of persons and denies that his commitments are in any sense in his control?”

Can totes feel the frustrations of the person who seeks to live objectively (with no such confidence in it). 

But living confidently is possible:

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. (Prov 3:5)

Am starting to understanding why this verse is situated in the book of Wisdom.